Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Asking for the Moon. . .

So, as most of you know, I dream big! Yes, really big! Sometimes it makes me nervous, though. Tonight is one of those times. . .so, again, I'm going to use my blog as a real journal. I'm not editing myself or protecting myself from you guys (even the stalkers). This might not even be smart, but I feel pretty vulnerable right now, so here you go. . .

As you know, we feel called to plan a trip to Liberia this fall. A trip to bring people who are interested in prayerfully considering supporting the relief work there. Well, this trip seems to the outside to be impossible. It is now the beginning of September and we want to plan a trip to Liberia before the end of November. . .and, oh yeah, no one has said yes yet! We are meeting on Saturday with 2 couples to propose this trip to them. Please pray that if God wants them to go, that He will tell them loud and clear! It seems like everywhere I turn, people tell me that this won't happen. "These people are too busy and they may not even Want to go to Africa." So, I go back and check my heart. . .by now, people know about the trip. . .what does it say about me if it doesn't happen. I catch myself thinking it's about me and confess again. Then, I begin to say, "even if God just wanted us to propose the idea and didn't actually plan it to happen. . ." I know this sounds like I'm trusting Him no matter what, but am I really just hedging my bets? I want to be open to hearing if I may not have heard Him right. I really do want what He wants, yet I believe that we stepped forward after much prayer. This confuses my heart. Part of me wants to believe Him for the impossible and part of me feels so vulnerable doing that, so I hedge. The truth is, I believed we were called to go on this trip. Maybe I was wrong. I will Trust Him and learn from Him in the process, but I have no clue as to where to place my heart. At what point do you plow ahead in confidence? I know that if God called this to happen, that He can take these people and give them an absolute desire to go and a desire to do so quickly (this fall!). I was reading Jeremiah 32 tonight. God says to Jeremiah (after calling him to do something crazy), " I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?" (Jer. 32:27) So, I think for now. . .until I hear differently, I plow ahead. I believe and choose to rest my heart on 2 facts: number 1, God is able to do the impossible! AND, it's easy for HIM! Getting people to go to Africa on weeks notice, busy, important people? no problem for our God. number 2, whatever God does, He allows for My GOOD and HIS GLORY. He cares more than I do about getting this orphanage built, about the people of Liberia. . .. .So I ask Him "for the Moon", knowing He's the one who created it! But, I have to confess, I'm scared to do so. . .

9 comments:

Scott and Erin said...

Brandi, I love your faith in this.

Have you read Seizing Your Divine Moment by Erwin McManus? It talks about exactly what you're blogging about, and it's a great book -- i highly recommend that you pick it up!

I am praying that the mighty arm of God will support your trying to support your Liberian brothers and sisters, and that others would see your passion and be called to action. I'm also praying for your heart as you work out all the details!

Love!

Faith said...

You go girl! Have faith that God will touch their hearts to go, that is all you can do besides praying! Jonah and I have committed to going back to Liberia every year in Feb. to help AoH in some way but until now I never thought to invite people to join us! Have to talk to Jonah about that. Maybe you blogged this just to give me the idea to invite others along too! Hm, interested to see where God goes with this.
Blessings, Faith

Sunday said...

As I told you this morning I was reading in Hebrews. I began reading the NIV and then became interested in what the Message had to say about this particular scripture. Here it is; The promise of "arrival" and "rest". Bran you keep at it and you will eventually come to the place of rest. It said that God means what He says. and what He says goes. Love you, Sun

amber said...

Your faith is inspiring... and I am joining my prayers with yours, asking for the moon for you in this trip!!
I really believe that God wants us to dream big and aim high. He is so capable of making ANYTHING happen, but He wants us to learn to trust and ASK! I think it is awesome that you are asking for mighty things.
Thanks for sharing your heart...

-A.

Campbell's Hope said...

Ok you know we want God to make this trip happen..Little Jo does too.:)You never know what God has planned.
Ease your heart Bran and know that he is in control. You don't have to hedge he has you covered all the way around....He is your safety net. :)
He will use you to fulfill a purpose,because you have been willing..
I just love you wild spirit don't let anyone talk you out of that.

love ya to this moon that you asked the Lord for and back again,
Rob

DeniseinSC said...

Blind faith! Keep walking...He knows the way. You're being obedient, and that's what matters right now.

God gave you this vision. Love ya, Denise

Anonymous said...

Thankyou so much Brandi for your words...It means so much that you are here with us fighting for all of our kids...I just can't thank you enough. We love you!!!

Love,
Charity

Scott and Katy said...

Brandi,
Keep your faith! Keep trusting the leading of the Lord and don't lose heart!

Alward Family said...

Good for you, Brandi!! You can never say you didn't try.

Christine