however, I'm also a very strong personality. . had you noticed that already? =) I am loud, sarcastic and feel like I'm a bit overwhelming at times.
I also LOVE war movies, any action based thriller and, of course, 24. . .not because I want Jack Bauer to rescue me. . .but because I want to be him! haha
This contradiction of who I am feels like just that. . .a contradiction. I feel like I don't fit in as a girl in some ways. The strength of my personality and my desire to be involved in things a bit over my head (just ask the HopeChest guys and Russ) make me feel like not the quiet, meek, demur woman that I'm "supposed" to be.
Here's where freedom has come for me. . .I LOVE BETH MOORE!
We've been doing the Esther study lately and she keeps coming back to one concept that keeps hitting me over the head. "Warrior Women".
She explained that in Prov. 31 (the perfect woman chapter that hangs over our heads!) the same word is used for this precious mama that is used for GIDEON. Yep, the warrior hero, Giddeon.
Oh how that frees me. Women ARE called to be a part of the fight! Just look at Esther. . she didn't just sit around during injustice. God used her!
So often, when I am learning about the injustice in this world, I want to DO something. I want to "get in the game" I want to be a part of the "fight" I want to be on the front lines of "battle"
I used to struggle with that. . .not anymore. That IS a part of me. God made me to be used in HIS battle. He allows ME to be on the frontlines. . .both in the physical sense as He is granting me the privilege of helping HopeChest and in the spiritual sense as I get to unite with other believers in fighting the spiritual battle through prayer and intercession for the oppressed. We get to be involved!
Does that thrill any of the rest of you? For me, as a woman who's wondered if I'm some sort of weird freak. . .it's thrilling and freeing. I can be completely a girl and completely a warrior all at the same time!